RE: [FamilyofGod] been thinking about leaving...
I am having the same struggle, sadly. My prayer ministry work is relatively knew as a specific separate calling, so I’m still feeling my way.
All I know is that I feel as though I’m constantly playing “catch-up.” If I should happen to have just one day where I can’t have my usual schedule, I’m “running to catch up.” On all the emails and internet prayer sites.
I’m beginning to learn that we can often be so taken with the work in a ministry that we can miss out on the relational aspect. I have many friends from church who are very long overdo for a phone call or email from me. I know these people for many years, and I’m not growing these relationships I already have. I’m also behind on the sermon synopsis I do for my church.
A few years ago, my church asked if I would do a synopsis of the weekly sermons and send them to the college students. So every week, I try to do one, or two, if I get too far behind. (Now, many of the adults in the church also want them because they can use them in devotionals with their children as well as use them to review the sermon.
Also, my sister’s two children spend a huge amount of time with us. (My grandmother, my mother, and I are all widows and we live together. My sister is divorced, works, and has some other things she is involved with from time to time. This gets even more involved when the kids have days off—like Thanksgiving and the Friday after. They’ll have two weeks at Christmas...
If I have a day where I need to go shopping or to the doc or something, I’m running again.
It’s good to be well spread, but our level of “butter” is finite. I think I’m starting to learn that deeper is better then wide but shallow.
I just need God’s wisdom to know what my prayer ministry call will look like.
Either way, may God bless you all, and if I must let go of the group, then know that this group and these names will still be in my daily prayers.
With prayers and blessings,
Tina
From: FamilyofGod@
Sent: Friday, November 27, 2009 6:23 PM
To: FamilyofGod@
Subject: Re: [FamilyofGod] been thinking about leaving...
| HI JOLENE. MY FRIEND.. JESUS EXPECT`S YOU TO TIME FOR YOURSELF. AND FROM THE SOUND OF IT ..YOU SOUND MORE THEN STRESSED..AND ON THE WAY TO A BURN OUT. WE KNOW YOU LOVE GOD..BUT A PERSON HAS TO SET LIMIT`S. BELIEVE ME I KNOW ABOUT A SERVENT`S HEART..AS I HAVE ONE. AND THE SAD THING IS THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO WILL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT...BEEN THERE. LET`S FACE IT ..THERE ARE SOME LAZY AND SELFISH PEOPLE IN THE BODY OF CHRIST..THERE WERE IN CHRIST`S TIME..AND THERE ARE TODAY AS WELL. JOLENE..I WAS WORKING FORTY + HOUR`S A WEEK AT OUR CHURCH BESIDES WORKING TO KEEP A ROOF OVER OUR HEAD`S AND FOOD ON THE TABLE. DID THAT FOR ABOUT THREE + YEAR`S. IT WAS WRONG FOR ME TO DO THAT. I PUT THE CHURCH NEED`S OVER THAT OF RAISING MY DAUGHTER. SHE WAS WITH ME..STILL IT WAS NOT FAIR TO HER. THE LORD MINISTERED TO ME TO SLOW DOWN. AND I AM ASKING GOD TO TOUCH YOUR HEART AS TO HIS THOUGHT`S ON THIS. JOLENE..PLEASE TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF..AS I CAN SENSE YOUR EXHAUSTION. LET ANOTHER STEP UP. AND IF FOR SOME REASON SOMEONE DOES NOT STEP UP..GUESS WHAT? THE STAR`S WILL NOT FALL FROM THE SKY..MOUNTAIN`
F.G. family, as I'm struggling to remain composed I must admit to youa'll that I've been contemplating the possibility of leaving this group today because I have been used soooo much by God to minister to the brethren offline and in another group PLUS spread the Gospel to the unsaved far and near that I barely have spiritual breathing space for my own relationship with Him...If this is coming across to you'all as sounding very selfish on my part please forgive me...I just need that little corner for just me and the Lord because He is LITERALLY all I have and I don't want it any other way, especially since as a lone ministry leader I depend upon Him for everything.. .I'm not leaving just this minute but just contemplating it even more..... :-(
The Lord is righteous in all His ways, |
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