Re: [FamilyofGod] Vent!!
wanda
From: Shelley Cartwright <bugshell87@yahoo.
To: FamilyofGod@
Sent: Fri, November 20, 2009 7:15:30 PM
Subject: Re: [FamilyofGod] Vent!!
And you havent lived the life ive lived and seen the things i have......i know hun u dont understand, but i understand myself ,i know why i stay The individual is handicapped by coming face to face with a conspiracy so monstrous he cannot believe it exists. - Edgar J Hoover
The United Nations is the greatest fraud in all History! Its purpose is to destroy the United States ." - John Rankin , U.S. Congressman
ShelleyGlitter
Rapture Ready
From: Wanda Ward <angelina56p47@ yahoo.com>
To: FamilyofGod@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Fri, November 20, 2009 12:07:52 PM
Subject: Re: [FamilyofGod] Vent!!
wanda
From: bugshell87 <bugshell87@yahoo. com>
To: FamilyofGod@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Fri, November 20, 2009 12:30:19 AM
Subject: [FamilyofGod] Vent!!
Family~Well, its time again, I need to vent!! I am absolultley miserable in my life!! I feel so alone, I have been with my bf for almost 7 years and I just know he doesnt love me anymore. Im tired of playing the game that everythings ok just to keep the peace around here. He doesnt pay much attention to me at all, when he does its usually him asking me to do something fo rhim. I know I havent been easy to deal with these pat years but why drag a relationship on just cuz your scared the other person will run off and use drugs and fall apart and kill them selves without you? Thats not grounds to stay in a relation ship, is it? I think he cares deeply for me but I know theres no(in love) feeling there. I was juz his project and still am cuz he couldnt save himself, so he trys over and over to save me. Only its actually killing me. It hurts, it really hurts to live with some one that you do love and you know in your heart the feelings just not mutual. Someone who is in love with someone wants to everything they can to make you happy right? It seems im the only one who does that or even makes an attempt. He would much rather hang out with his mother than me. And when im invited to hang out with them, i dont want to cuz i know its just to (not hurt my feelings) I cannot leave this man cuz I DO love him. I dont know what it is that keeps me here when i know im not really wanted. If i loves myself, and him enough, I would go, so he could find someone that makes him happy and that his mother(wich he lives for) Would approve of. She only puts up with me cuz of him. Im a good person and i deserve happiness and so does he. He did save my life, maybe thats why i stay,cuz i think i will never find someone would want to be with me for any leangth of time. Im so sad and I fear so much that this will end up putting me in the ground. My heart breaks everyday over this , as im typing im just crying my eyes out cuz I know what im saying is true. Its hurts so bad......... ......~ShelleyGl itter
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