Hi Family,
Thank you for your prayers for me over the weekend. Yes, we did get to talk. It was almost midnight on Sunday and I was dressed and ready to hop on a bus to go back to the city when he appeared. But he did and a friend of ours facilitated a way for the two of us to sit alone on the beach so I could talk to him.
The talk lasted for two hours and was both liberating and heart-breaking at the same time. I was able to say all I could to him, almost all anyway. And for the most part he just sat there and listened. I think God helped me so that I was able to ask the right questions. Plant seeds in his head that maybe with God's help, Moro will really have a think about what happened... something to help him change the way he is now. That he heard every word, remembers the right things from that talk and that it helps him.
I continue to pray for him and I ask my Family here to do the same. Please Lord God, touch his heart, touch his mind, touch his soul. He is lost and confused. He is destroying himself with immaturity and pride. He doesn't yet see the love that is right in front of him, my love... or if he does, he sees himself as unworthy and turns away. Lord God please remove the bad influences in his life. It is killing me to see him deteriorate this way.
I continue to pray that somewhere down this rocky road, we find each other. A friend of mine today just said "you gave (him) the seeds and wake up call" and she will keep praying for peace and guidance for both of us. I do too. I don't know if I am just being delusional and stubborn or if it really is God's voice in my heart... but I feel that we aren't truly finished yet. For now, yes. But that this is only serving a greater purpose for both of us.
I pray for him to come back to me when we are both ready ... but until that time, please God, let me be okay.
Lord God, I end this prayer with praises and thanks. Thank you that I was able to speak with him. Thank You for friends like Mark and Viva who care for him and care for me. Thank You for the army of love that surrounds me. Thank You for those great conversations with caring friends throughout the weekend. Thank You for a safe bus ride home and that I was able to function at work that day. Thank You for an understanding mother. Thank You for people who took the time to reply to my emails. Thank You, thank You for putting calm in the midst of the tears and the fears.
God bless you all and may He continue to be everyone's Lord and Savior.
Kage
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