Family of God: [FamilyofGod] Re: Simple Thoughts On Promises- 124

Mat 5:23 Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee;

Mat 5:24 Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.

How should this have been handled?
Who is "wrong" who is "right"?
Is that what is important here?
What is important,
our agenda,
another mans agenda,
or God's agenda?
We all like to think our agenda and God's are the same. The problem is culture and peoples pasts mix into what we view as what God wants done.
For this pastor maybe it was a view that women are not to minister

for yourself maybe there is the issue of wanting acceptance and respect as a minister of God.
Welcome to what is referred to as the "burden of the Lord"
You want to do what God has instructed you to do and it weighs on you ....
Is this the Lord?
What is this sensation in my hands? While a mature person would know by experience someone who isn't is unsure and hesitant.
Who wants to mess up, surely not someone who loves the Lord.Surely not a person who feels accountable to the Lord for having not done the mission they felt God had called them to.
Let me encourage you Sister. you are not alone. If we peel back the surface of all the "glamor" of ministry" you will find many people share your dilemma.
How do we get past this stagnation and uncertainty? First of all take it out of the closet. Satan loves things done in secret. People have their misunderstandings. None of us are perfect not you, not me, nor this pastor. While one would think they could expect more maturity and discretion from a pastor they are people nonetheless,and just as human as the rest of us.
There is only one sinless and perfect one that ever walked the earth and that was Jesus.To keep a festering wound never help to heal it.Lack of forgiveness blocks the flow of God and would put up a roadblock for the real manifest presence of God in your life .Holding onto a felling of perceived wrongs is like clinging to a huge rock while you are trying to swim.

SO why did I share those scriptures with you at the beginning of my reply? Because in keeping this all internal you give place to the devil. If you had a problem with this pastor you needed to go to him in a spirit of meekness and talk about this. Sometimes the way we "take" (perceive) things from others in life is just a reflection of ourselves.
God is the great equalizer in life we are not to take matters in our own hands and get our way unless God has specifically told us to.

While we are truly endeavoring to learn a new ministry trust me some of what you will experience may seem painful It would be nice if it was all laying hands on people and they all get healed.It would also be nice if you had a real word for someone that they all received it and we all live happily ever after, but it doesn't always go that way.
While I am at work in the field of the Lord I can expect offence will come Jesus told us it would. SO if I am truly a disciple I rejoice because I am accounted worthy to suffer reproach while I truly am working for HIM. It isn't about me and my feelings , it is about him.We must refuse to be an unwitting tool in the devils plans and disarm the offense by confronting it head on in a meek and submissive way.
If I am under and mans ministry I submit to him in the Lord and give him honor. I don't talk about him behind his back.Like the scripture say go to him and settle the matter. Be Spirit lead and God will bless you for being a doer of the word.

If I am always considering "my feelings" I make myself vulnerable to the devil. Really "I am dead and my life is hidden with Christ in God" I am crucified with Christ and live by faith.... dead people don't have hurts and resentments........ I am not a resident here in this world just passing through I don't expect pastors to be perfect... I am not either

--- In FamilyofGod@yahoogroups.com, "Dr. Johnson Cherian" <johnsonsharona@...> wrote:
>
> Thanks for your testimony. Yeah, sometimes pastors are jealous if people under them have greater gifts like that of prophecy or healing and that can lead to a clash.
> Be obedient to the promptings of the Holy Spirit. That will bring you peace.
> Dr. Johnson
>
> --- In FamilyofGod@yahoogroups.com, Isabella's Rose Garden <matthews1@> wrote:
> >
> > hi Wanda
> > I find pastors often dismiss women, and some are very rude. One time I
> > was on the way to church and we had to pass a woman's house who we had
> > recently heard had been diagnosed with terminal cancer. On the way my
> > hands felt like they were on fire. This had never happened to me
> > before. I thought maybe I was supposed to stop and pray for the woman
> > but barely knew her and was afraid I was just fooling myself about my
> > hands being hot meaning God wanted me to use them as His instrument to
> > heal others. So I didn't stop.
> > Then after church I said to my pastor that I thought maybe God wanted to
> > use me as an instrument of healing through the laying on of hands. He
> > looked at me with this scornful look on his face and said something like
> > "well we will see"
> > Im basically a very insecure and shy person and it doesn't take much to
> > discourage me, so I just sort of slunk out of the church and decided not
> > to think about the healing anymore. I convinced myself it was just me
> > wanting to have the gift, not God speaking to me.
> > I think my gift has been hindered by that experience because since that
> > time the only ones who seem affected significantly by my laying on of
> > hands for healing is my husband and my dad. Maybe that's what God
> > intended tho, so that's just fine with me.
> > I just don't want to be burying my 'talent' as the Bible warns against.
> > But I don't want to assume something that is just of my own yearning
> > either.
> > I wish I knew how to know for sure when to attempt to use the gift
> > because so many people need God's healing.
> > One time a friend was having panic attacks. I never told her anything
> > about my experiences with healing. I just hugged her and patted her on
> > the back and prayed in tongues silently for a brief time. From that
> > time on she seemed so much calmer and hasn't spoken of more panic attacks.
> > Maybe we can bring God's healing through hugs and silent prayer too??
> > The only thing wrong with it that I can see is how do I give the glory
> > to God if the person doesn't know what really happened?
> > Maybe God only cares if I give Him Glory in my heart. and not so much
> > that I make it public.
> > What do you all think?
> > Marilyn
> >
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