Family of God: Re: [FamilyofGod] Ongoing Ministry-related Prayer Request...

sweet joleen!!

listen to god!!! examine your heart!!! seek god and even if you must, fast and pray!!! ask god what would he have for you to do that would please him? how would he be most glorified when using you as his vessel/servant?

sometimes when it is something that god would have for us to do, we do run up agains obstacles, but i am so glad you are asking god is this him or just your flesh.

listen and discern, my friend.

in all we do, we do for GOD!!!!

----- Original Message -----

From: Jolene Cardenas

To: Family Of God

Sent: Wednesday, October 21, 2009 7:41 PM

Subject: [FamilyofGod] Ongoing Ministry-related Prayer Request...

dear Family Of God brethren,

I just thought I'd "stop by" to say hello and also see how each of you are doing. For me, I admit that I woke up this morning at 4 AM Hawaii Time/7 AM Pacific Time, weeping over my high calling even though I knew that the Lord was faithful to me in providing for my ministry-related needs again two days ago as well as countless opportunities to share with my pastor, Bill Stonebraker, testimonies of my ventures of faith in ministering the Gospel to the unsaved via e-mail, Instant Messaging, phone call, and personal visits and spiritual support to Christians globally from my Braille copy of the Bible. Please pray that I'd continue to rest in the sovereignty and absoluteness of Almighty God in leading me in this direction in my future even though others at church, including the pastors, might (or might NOT) believe that it is His calling for me. I am sure that it is, the three brethren whom He had used to confirm it are also sure that it is, and He had just added another confirmer to the group yesterday from another church. It's just that a certain brother's repeated, persistent questioning of whether I'm getting 100% pastoral backing and supervision in this ministry is wearing me down emotionally and spiritually, and I'm beginning to think,

"So if I don't get 100% pastoral support in this, does it mean that it is NOT God's calling for me but rather an outward manifestation of emotionalism? Whatever happened to the importance of believing in the sovereignness and absoluteness of Almighty God even in the face of unbelief and skepticism from within the Body of Christ? Was every ministry down through the centuries 100% pastor-supported, anyway?"

Brethren, I just need prayers, please, nothing more, since I do all the ministering and recordkeeping alone and have been for the past five years now, physically speaking. As good as this brother's intentions are, it's beginning to cause doubts to form in my head--just because a pastor or several of them haven't "officially" made this ministry outreach a reality on paper or something to that effect. I just can't stop crying inside. Thank you'all soooo much...

in Christ my True Everything,
Jolene.

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped;
Therefore my heart exults, And with my song I shall thank Him.--Psalm 28:7 (NASB)