Re: [FamilyofGod] VENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love me or hate me...Im STILL Gonna Shine....
ShelleyGlitter
From: Roger Long <rogermanofgod@
To: FamilyofGod@
Sent: Sun, December 6, 2009 4:44:28 AM
Subject: Re: [FamilyofGod] VENT!!!!!!!!
SHELLEY..GOD KNOW`S ALL AND SEE`S ALL. WE WILL `BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR EVERY WORD THAT COMES FROM OUR MOUTH. LOVE COVER`S A MULTITUDE OF SIN`S. SHELLEY THERE IS POWER IN THE CROSS..LAY YOUR BURDEN THERE. I FAIL TO DO THAT AT TIMES..LATELY MOST TIMES. I WANT TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU THAT THE HOLY GHOST SAID.. JUST AS JESUS RAISED LAZARUS FROM THE GRAVE..YOU TO WERE DEAD TO ME IN CHRIST AND I GAVE YOU A NEW HEART AND MIND. SHELLEY..GOD IS IN CONTROL..NO MATTER WHAT WE GO THROUGH..NO MATTER HOW WE REACT TO A CERTAIN SITUATION..GOD IS IN CONTROL. ACTUALLY..THIS IS FOR ME ALSO...SMILE. WHEN WE ALLOW THE THING`S OF THIS WORLD TO TAKE UP SPACE WITHIN US..WE CROWD GOD OUT. LORD ,SHELLEY AND I COME `BEFORE YOU AND HUMBLE ASK FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS. FATHER WE DO NOT MEAN TO SIN AGAINST YOU, NOR DO WE MEAN TO HOLD ONTO PAST HURT`S..BITTERNESS. .HATE..ANGER. .TO BE UNFORGIVING. FATHER WE AS YOUR CHILDREN ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FOR TURNING OUR BACK`S TO YOU..PLEASE FORGIVE US..WE HAVE BEEN FOOLISH. FATHER, TAKE FROM OUR HEART`S, ALL THAT OFFEND`S YOU AND PLEASE..PUT YOUR PERFECT WILL IN OUR HEART`S . LORD PLACE OUR FEET ON THE PATH YOU HAVE INTENDED FOR EACH ONE OF US..FEET PLANTED FIRMLY..EYES STRAIGHT FORWARD WAITING FOR YOUR PERFECT WILL..VEERING NEITHER TO THE RIGHT NOR THE LEFT..BUT WAITING FOR YOUR PERFECT WILL. AND FATHER, PLEASE PLACE AN HEDGE OF PROTECTION, FROM THE CROWN`S OF OUR HEAD TO THE SOLES OF OUR FEET...FOR WE ARE YOUR CHILDREN LORD AND EVIL HAS NO POWER OVER US...ONLY THAT WHICH WE SURRENDER IN TIMES OF TESTING AND ADVERSITY..FOR THAT PLEASE FORGIVE US. GOD..WE KNOW THAT YOU THOUGHT OF US..BEFORE YOU LAID THE FOUNDATION`S OF HEAVEN AND EARTH. WE LIFT YOUR HOLY NAME UP FATHER..IN THE NAME OF JESUS..WE THANK YOU FATHER FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR US..NOT FOR WHAT YOU WILL DO..JUST FOR THE LOVE AND BLESSING`S YOU HAVE BESTOWED UPON US..THANK YOU OUR MASTER. AMEN. SHELLEY..DID YOU HEAR THAT..I AM WILLING TO BE WRONG..BUT WITHIN..IT SOUNDED LIKE..GO AND SIN NO MORE. MY FRIEND..HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD..I LOVE YOU MY SISTER IN CHRIST. ROGERFrom: bugshell87 <bugshell87@yahoo. com>
To: FamilyofGod@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Sun, December 6, 2009 5:38:06 AM
Subject: [FamilyofGod] VENT!!!!!!!! !!!!!!
Family~Ok... its time again, vent!!! Alot of u have known me for awhile, u know since i joined fog ive had pain and im an addict.Well, its just gotton worse for me. I juz detoxed off 125 mcg of fentanyl being delivered every hour to my body from a patch, the pain is so severe i got a blade in the bathtub(so i wouldnt bleed all over the floor and leave a mess) and thought of ending my life, in 2004 i almost did. The docters say they do not know how i survived an overdose as large as i took. I was in icu for a week tubes everywhere and full life support. WHY? WHY AM I HERE?????? This sux. Well, here i am back on the pain meds cuz i cant take the pain, i may actually need surgery cuz my backs curving pretty bad from kyphosis/scoliosis. Bryan and i , the relationship is failing after 7 years, b 4 that we were together 2 1/2 years.He saved me from the streets where i was a call grrl/prostitute for 7 years i lived on the streets, doing drugs such as, heroin, cocaine, meth,alchol, im so ashamed....how awful i was a whore. I betcha the people that havent known me for long, this is blowing yur minds? Shoot, i have alot more to confess, but that, is for jesus ears only. I hope i never do go psychotic again and do kill myself, cuz im fightin hard to live here only to not go to hell, and to be with my king, my love, jesus~ShelleyGlitte r
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