Family of God: [FamilyofGod] Despair

Hey, sister

I am not able to understand your pain as I am not going through what you are experiencing. What I do understand is that you are under spiritual attack. You need to find a person to generate a spiritual and emotional support system for you. Preferably, a personally trusted and respected person who can be in contact with you on a daily basis. A person that fears God. A person who shall support you no matter what. You probably do not have such a person in your life at the moment?

My personal viewpoint is that you really need professional help. I am unable to diagnose your symptoms, however, I can honestly say that a medical professional should be able to assist you through this time, together with any trusted friends/family. There is no weakness in seeking help, and there are many medical options available to assist you through this difficult time, or, if necessary, for a longer period.

It is truthfully debilitating to feel alone and helpless in the world. However, with God there is always hope. Once again, it is easy for me to advise you to have faith, trust and hope in God. But when you are walking a walk in the shadows, this is difficult. Spiritually, you have to take it one step at a time. I encourage you to prayerfully surrender yourself to God's will in your life, to personally forgive each person in prayer that has injured you in any way, and to prayerfully try to develop a more positive outlook on life.

Blessings

Craig
Preach the gospel at all times; if necessary, use words.

--- In FamilyofGod@yahoogroups.com, bral67@... wrote:
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> Here i sit another sunday morning afraid to go to church. why?
> because christians are the scarriest people in the world. they
> pretend to be your friend and then are no where in sight when you
> need them. They act just like the world. Mean.
> I have been a christian for over 20 years.
> My siblings are christians and hate every ounce of me.
> my husband is a christian and has hurt me more than anyone i have
> ever met in my life and out of my "christian" duty I still have to
> have sex with this man, who has no intention of understanding me or
> my disease.
> I'm depressed.
> I stay depressed. When am I not depressed. I can't eat right I cant
> sleep right I can't take care of my children. My sink has things
> growing in it. I yell I scream I cry. I have two grown men and seven
> children living in my home. Every one of them goes "suck suck suck"
> Let's suck the life out of her and watch her die. Everyone of them
> get up and go to church on Sunday morning and I stay here alone.
> Never once do I hear.
> "are you OK"
> "you seem angry"
> "you seem sad"
> "lets get her to a doctor"
> "lets get her some mefecine"
> "come on go to church with us, come praise God, I wont let anyone
> hurt you"
> isnt my husband supposed to protect me and take care of me?
> I dont get it people, i just dont get it.
>